Friday Feels- Motherhood

Happy Friday! It’s been a pretty good week around here. This weekend is a big one for our family, not only do we have Mother’s Day but it’s the Hubs’ birthday on Saturday! Woohoo! This man loves celebrations and parties and his birthday is no exception. The problem is I’m not one for big parties so I usually don’t plan well, and that usually leaves me feeling like I let him down. Insert another face palm emoji here (I’m really needing those this week!). I’m trying to do better and we have a couple of celebrations planned this weekend amongst the Mother’s Day events so hopefully he will feel as loved as he truly is, he deserves the best!

Motherhood

I wanted to chat a bit about motherhood for my Friday Feels this week. I have talked a bit about my journey to motherhood on here but wanted to really share my heart on the subject. I have always known and dreamed of being a mom. There was never really any question, I knew I would get married and have kids someday. I just always thought it would happen the traditional way. Never in my wildest dreams did I think that someday I would foster children from broken homes and adopt to grow my family.

Finding out that I had PCOS just before getting married honestly didn’t really phase me. I don’t think I was really aware of the struggle it would present with infertility and when we decided to finally start trying it never really became an urgent need to seek out any extreme medical interventions. We just knew God would take care of it in His own way and in His own timing. And boy oh boy did He!

Not long after being married we started praying for a child, praying that I would become a mother. I remember our Pastor’s wife speaking over us that she saw a picture of a little girl playing in her room in our home. Then we had a guest evangelist pray over us and share the same things. We knew God was working and assumed that I would be getting pregnant and His promise would be fulfilled. Little did we know that a little girl we had been praying for, who was in foster care at the time, would come to be ours. It was exactly nine months after those words spoken over us that little miss Gia moved into our home!

I had a pregnancy of the unusual kind- one where a child was created and formed in my heart. One that I had to work and wait to make a child mine. One that birthed my motherhood. I’m sure we’ve all heard some version of the adoption saying, “Born not from our flesh but born in our hearts.” I can honestly say that these words ring so true. Although I didn’t experience a physical pregnancy there was something so significant that it took those nine months to bring our sweet girl home. We longed to make her ours and chose to allow God to unfold His story for us and open all the doors. Her story is much simpler than our little guy’s. His pregnancy was one of trial, tribulation, faith and trust. Just as some pregnancies and births seem simple and enjoyable some are difficult and hard; His was the latter. It was filled with so much uncertainty and at one point we felt all hope was lost, but that’s where our Father stepped in. Once we surrendered, the pain of pregnancy was released and he was birthed as our son.

You see I don’t wish for a second that God had done things differently. I am so thankful for the journey that we had to endure to become parents. The journey I had to endure to become a mother. We all have our own journeys to motherhood that are unique and special, none better than the other but all perfect for who we are. For who He created us to be. Those journeys have shaped me. Shaped who I am, what I believe, and especially shaped the faith I have in my Father. No matter the circumstance I know how faithful He has proven Himself to be to me and I know without a shadow of a doubt that no matter the storm He will be there to calm it, or at least lead me through it.

I want to encourage you, whether someone already calls you mom or you are waiting for that little blessing, the Father has the perfect plan for you in your motherhood. Be still and trust in Him. I promise He knows what He is doing.

Last Minute Mother’s Day Gifts

I put together a quick list of simple and easy gifts you can run out and get today! Shower the moms in your life with a small gesture to let them know they are doing a good job and you appreciate all the little things they do that go un-noticed!